For a while now I have been existing not living. I have spent so much time building walls around me and blocking my vulnerability that I find it so hard to trust people and let them in.
My walls give me the illusion of being perfect and feeds my perfectionism. They block my growth mindset and force me to stay in my comfort zone. My fear feeds my perfectionism and prevents me from being the best version of myself and letting go so many things I need to.
I have decided to feel again because I want to give myself a chance to make mistakes, learn from them and grow. I want to let people in and form stronger connections. I want to evolve to be the best version of myself and break free from my mental bindings. Letting myself feel would give me the power and strength to explore the capabilities of my brain and build my self confidence. Above all, I would stop feeding my fear.
Feeling allows me to explore my emotions and learn how to better manage them, thus building resilience.
Thanks for reading!
Alieh Kimbeng 