Alieh Kimbeng
For a while now I have been existing not living. I have spent so much time building walls around me and blocking my vulnerability that I find it so hard to trust people and let them in.
Have you ever had felt like you have given your all and received nothing in return? Have you ever felt like no matter what you do, you would never be good enough? Have you ever felt like your voice and input doesn’t matter? Have you ever felt so much emotional pain that you just want to curl up in a ball and cry yourself to sleep?
It’s past the quarter of the year and I thought I’ll share some of the things I’m loving right now.
Thank God, I’ve lived to see another year. I’m not really big on New Year resolutions so my only one is to get more sleep. I’m more of a daily resolutions kinda girl which is basically me writing down 3 things I plan to achieve everyday, then do it.
A couple of weeks ago my team organized an ice fishing event and initially I wasn’t going to go because I told myself fishing was not for me and wth is even ice fishing. Some other things I told myself were, black people don’t go ice fishing, it requires a lot of patience and i’m going to be bored to dead because I would be the only one who doesn’t drink alcohol.
I’m excited and nervous to write this post because It’s sort of a self appreciation, reflection and “it’s going to be okay letter to myself”. Also, for the first time in my life I’ve decided to do something for myself on my birthday, instead of other people doing something for me or doing nothing at all….. I’m going to New York for my birthday!
Alieh Kimbeng 